Tuesday, August 25, 2009


When I don't see the miraculous, I have felt Him walking beside me still.
When my prayer is not answered, He remains a God who hears.
As I lean not on my own understanding, I am in awe of His generosity.
In times when I do not see breakthrough, I see Him in all things.

thank you for the stars,
and for light that we don't see

your kindness is from everlasting to everlasting,
and I walk daily in it.

thank you that your goodness is something I am apart of,
and thank you that it is something I can never understand.

lend me the grace to only walk beside you

Monday, August 17, 2009


I was musing over the weirdness/uncertainty of my life last night with my mom, and I found myself repeating words that I almost recognized, but wasn't quite sure where I had heard them from. I was talking (complaining/whining) about how I am trying to do things "right" and why then, would the Lord be withholding from me? What cause for this continual state of "waiting" or unknowing (or ignorance, whatever...)?

It wasn't until early this morning that i remembered that I had blogged a while ago about just such a scenario here.

Would I still praise His name when breakthrough/revelation/help didn't come? Holy hell. Maybe not? I mean, my praise these days is a kind of wimpy, half-hearted "thank you" to the God of the universe who still lets me breathe each day.


I think I rebuke myself.

And I do praise you, Lord; for my health, for my family, for my best friends who are faithful to continue to pray for me, for my job, for MUSIC, for that lovely vacation that we had, for restoration, for healing, for my violin, for learning to walk with you, for your grace that covers me every.single.day, for crickets that chirp, for the early morning that's just quiet enough for me to hear from you, for giving your life for me. Hallelujah.

Friday, August 14, 2009

night walking

i've taken to late night walks.

So amazing.

It's turning point in my life that I have begun to really appreciate the joy and peace of early mornings and late nights.

i love walking outside when no one's around. there's something so very magical about night and the melodic sounds of crickets hidden by the darkness.

I've asked the Lord to walk with me during these night walks, and I think He has.

He's very quiet though.